You can't stop staring, you know you're not worthy of this magnificent booty. Still it has you under a spell you cannot break, you'll be simping and sending like the piggy you are until your balls and wallet are empty.
It's okay to want a hug or to rest in a lap. It doesn't make you less dominant to need comfort. It's okay to need a shoulder to cry on. I hope you're doing okay and if not we can change that :)